The missing slides, the ones that couldn't be found neither hide nor hair, the ones that didn't exist because in fact all of the tumor was in just the one slide used to make the pathologic diagnosis such that I had to have a second biopsy procedure and every complication known to man two weeks ago, HAVE BEEN FOUND! That's right, all that I am currently enduring and have endured from pneumothorax and coding to readmission for severe dyspnea, all did not have to happen had someone done their job and kept track of my slides.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry or both. I have been out of work for two weeks, will be out indefinitely until and IF I regain my pulmonary function, and have endured more pain and listlessness FOR NOTHING. It should have never happened. It's been a bad dream sequence loop.
The lesson in all of this is that like I mentioned in the Starbucks situation in a previous post, everyone needs to take pride and ownership of the work they do. You may not be doing the work you had hoped to be doing. You may dream of other jobs. You may absolutely hate your job, but for everyone's sake, do it with pride and passion. A simple mistake can affect someone you know or don't know in such a way as to bring him or her to the brink of death for no reason. That is where I have been. Through the lowest of lows and a feeling of unbelievable helplessness, I have fought to persevere, but I can't believe that this kind of error could happen and cause so much havoc in my life.
While I would normally be of the mindset to just let things go, I don't know if I can do that this time. An extra procedure, two chest tubes, coding/near death experience, now 16 chest X-rays, 7 CT scans, days of struggling to take even one normal breath, not to mention all that my family and friends have had to endure, all adds up to a head rolling.
Tonight, I will pray for the strength to get through this new set of challenges and pray for the strength to forgive.
I don't know whether to laugh or cry or both. I have been out of work for two weeks, will be out indefinitely until and IF I regain my pulmonary function, and have endured more pain and listlessness FOR NOTHING. It should have never happened. It's been a bad dream sequence loop.
The lesson in all of this is that like I mentioned in the Starbucks situation in a previous post, everyone needs to take pride and ownership of the work they do. You may not be doing the work you had hoped to be doing. You may dream of other jobs. You may absolutely hate your job, but for everyone's sake, do it with pride and passion. A simple mistake can affect someone you know or don't know in such a way as to bring him or her to the brink of death for no reason. That is where I have been. Through the lowest of lows and a feeling of unbelievable helplessness, I have fought to persevere, but I can't believe that this kind of error could happen and cause so much havoc in my life.
While I would normally be of the mindset to just let things go, I don't know if I can do that this time. An extra procedure, two chest tubes, coding/near death experience, now 16 chest X-rays, 7 CT scans, days of struggling to take even one normal breath, not to mention all that my family and friends have had to endure, all adds up to a head rolling.
Tonight, I will pray for the strength to get through this new set of challenges and pray for the strength to forgive.
hope that strength will come to you. we are waiting for your good new Norm.. I wish I can see you in Kirin and bring you a glass of Takara as I used to.
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